Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Wednesday Weekly Weigh In
I'm going to call this a trend.
Current weight: 214.6 lbs.
Now I know I can do better than this. It's been a while since I've gotten this serious about losing the weight, and I'm fired up again. When I start a program, I know I can do 5lbs a week if I'm diligent. I've done half that. But seeing this loss is encouraging, and it's getting me even more fired up. I can spend a little more time at the gym and see a better loss next week.
Last night was pretty awful for me because if the stress. I've had to think a lot about what I want to take on as far as my grown son and his situation is concerned. There has to be a time I let go of some of that, and it's difficult, because he is ill, but he makes the same mistakes over and over and over again, and I think it's time I stop coming to his rescue. I've agreed to a power of attorney to help him clean up the financial mess his soon to be ex-wife is leaving him, but after that he's going to have to pick himself up and dust himself off.
As for my grandson, I am happy to be grandma. I don't have to worry about whether or not I should be the one to raise him just yet. He's in a good foster home right now, and the legal shuffle hasn't even been resolved (it's been about 8 months now). I get very wound up about all that's going on with him, and I'm really powerless to do anything but love him right now. That has to be enough.
I find it far too easy to be sidetracked by the crises in the family. Even my youngest has new drama going on at college: her references for her program didn't come in on time, now she has 24 hours to get them or be unable to apply for her major. I know she didn't think to ask for more than she needed, and I know it was difficult for her to ask people for references because of her autism. So how much should I step in?
What I need to focus on right now is ME. All of my kids are adults. All of them make their own choices. I know they have to also make their own mistakes and learn from the consequences of their actions. And I know that right now I should be focusing on my life, my future.
One of my big challenges in losing weight is letting go of some of the stuff that I don't need to carry... both the fat and the responsibilities.