Insomniac Notes

Well, it's that time of year again: We've gone from cold and flu season here in Albuquerque to allergy season. I can barely breathe today, my nose is running like crazy, and I keep breaking out in sweats.

I've had an extremely disappointing day all around. It's bad enough that my cat was more active than I was today... at least she occasionally moved off the couch to go lie in the sun in front of the window, which is more than I could manage... but the day culminated in my finding out that the Las Cruces trip might be canceled. From then on the day was punctuated by uncontrollable bouts of weeping. It was just the last straw right now.

Sleeping hasn't been very restful these last several nights. I'm having nightmares every night now, and sleeping less and less. It's actually unpleasant to go to sleep, and now with this congestion it's almost an unbearable thought. What I really need is a steamy, relaxing shower to take out some of the tension and clear my sinuses. Then maybe I can get some Zzzz.

I have this thing when I'm about to move where I go around photographing all my favorite things in the city I'm leaving. I've been doing my little "farewell tour" for about a week now. Unfortunately, in the last few days I've seen so much that I'm unhappy with and so many bad things have happened... Cay says it's a good thing, because once I leave I won't miss being here. I'm not sure if that's true, but it certainly has made me look forward to leaving.

I'm a little worried about how all this is effecting my weight. I'm stiff and moving around a lot less, but still a lot more mobile than I used to be. None-the-less, I worry that the corticoids being pumped into my system from the stress are just making me fatter, and the lack of mobility only makes it worse. I'm dreading the weigh in on Wednesday!

On the other hand, all of this has made me realize that I could really benefit from getting serious about Yoga.

How fat is TOO fat? I'm kinda thinking about that a lot today as well. I know that as I get older, skin and bones isn't going to be a good or healthy look... and while I don't believe that I've ever seen a percentage body fat scale that relates to age, I'm pretty comfortable thinking that once you hit 60, it's better to have a little extra padding. That's not to say once you hit the senior years you should be obese... but that waif thin just doesn't work in my mind with silver hair.